what I see

I am thinking
to send you away
for your good
or for mine

I want to save you
to catch you
and if I cannot
I want others there
to do it for me

I cannot help myself
but want the best for you
that my money can buy
these days that is not much

But
I will sell it all
for one year of time
for you
I will pay for a lifetime
if it will help you see

I want that magic mirror
for you to look into
so you can recognize
yourself
as potential
as opportunity
because
that’s what I see

Risk to be open

Squeezing my eyes shut tight,

I would huddle down into bed

between pillows and covers

where I would wait,

holding my breath so as not to make a sound.

I feigned being invisible.

Today in my grown up life,

I continue to squeeze my eyes closed,

huddle under covers and between pillows,

sometimes I hold my breath and wait.

The difference aside from my age is that now

my heart is open.

Scary this thing I must do,

daily the risk to be me,

whole-heartedly and fully me.

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